got our iMac today!
well i must say, it was a smooth setup (read as connect power cable and press the ON button) and it just worked!!! After having read about Apple and Mac for so long, finally i get to experience it.
I have been born to software in Windows, thats how i learnt it. Of course in my B.Tech it was all UNIX but finally when i started working at SAP its always been Windows. So after 9 years of officially working on windows, i decided to buy a home computer. Of course it had to be Apple and IT HAD TO BE iMAC.
So after waiting for 3 weeks for delivery, it arrived on 23rd May Friday morning. Infact i took my day off, just to get warmed up around it.
I also got printer from canon and backup hard-drive/wireless router Time Capsule. Setting all of them except the printer was smooth and great!
gotta go now...will share my first experiences later.
But something really stuck me as odd.
Sunday, May 25, 2008
Saturday, February 23, 2008
want - need, negation, fun-happiness
the title seem strange, but i had to write down my philosophy which i explained to PD.
I believe in life, there is always wants and needs. Wants are what your heart desires while needs are what your stomach demands. Sounds funny, read on.
Wants are obvious, you can get also with some effort and will give you the best fun ever. I would consider buying the newest gadget or watching the latest movie or shopping the best clothes or job in foreign country as our wants. They are somethings you will normally do, normally desire and strive for. Without them we dont feel happy, we feel irritated, feels as if something is missing in life. Strangely we end up running after them. They also come when time is right but leave us with a sense of a-miss. Sometimes they may even leave us empty, drained, exhausted and wondering. To say it strongly, we are drug-addicts of our wants. Really we are (!!!).
Just a question before we continue, we all feel the need to be appreciated, desired and wanted. Are these wants or needs?
Ok, Need is our inner desire, not obvious, never clear and will give you the happiness and calmness you never had before. It is very difficult to actually figure out what one needs. i for example dont know that yet. May be i need to feel loved or the need to create something that touches people. cant say.
Thats where theory of negation comes in. It helps you get right wants and needs. It can help you decide what you dont really need. It is important to know what you DONOT NEED. i dont need emotional attachments which i cannot handle. i dont need a lot money to make me satisfied. i dont need to be put on a pedestal and worshipped. I dont need to be great but a good human being. i dont need a big TV or a big car or a big house to feel like a king. Is this the difference between sex and love?
Anyways, the true fact of matter is a BALANCE of wants and needs. Dont miss out gaining wants at expense of ones needs and never give up looking for satisfaction of one's needs in attaining one's wants. One has to seek and strike the balance between them, wants are spontaneous while need are thought through. spontaneity is a must while enlightenment helps stay calm. One should not in search for needs, skip through the moments bring wants.
The reason for this balance, the need for BOTH fun and happiness in life.
Wants bring in fun, they are momentary but help one release the energy built up inside. One should make most of them but not loose sight and path. Remember that it is fun, enjoy it while it lasts, wont be for long and will leave you with a sense of unfruitfulness so move on. Move on !!!
Needs bring in happiness which is permanent, long lasting and self fulfilling. Such moments are few and far in between but when they happen one can reflect and feel nice about them for whole of their lives. Happiness will give one sense to rootness and in some ways discover life.
So for now, I AM FREE!!!!
back to where it all started from, this blog. :-)
It is good weather, time to go out and catch the sun till it lasts. Rest life goes on.
May you come, may you go
keep it going all along
keep the focus, yet enjoy
have fun but go on.
Born again, so cry,
Life is a journey, fly, fly, fly!!!!
I believe in life, there is always wants and needs. Wants are what your heart desires while needs are what your stomach demands. Sounds funny, read on.
Wants are obvious, you can get also with some effort and will give you the best fun ever. I would consider buying the newest gadget or watching the latest movie or shopping the best clothes or job in foreign country as our wants. They are somethings you will normally do, normally desire and strive for. Without them we dont feel happy, we feel irritated, feels as if something is missing in life. Strangely we end up running after them. They also come when time is right but leave us with a sense of a-miss. Sometimes they may even leave us empty, drained, exhausted and wondering. To say it strongly, we are drug-addicts of our wants. Really we are (!!!).
Just a question before we continue, we all feel the need to be appreciated, desired and wanted. Are these wants or needs?
Ok, Need is our inner desire, not obvious, never clear and will give you the happiness and calmness you never had before. It is very difficult to actually figure out what one needs. i for example dont know that yet. May be i need to feel loved or the need to create something that touches people. cant say.
Thats where theory of negation comes in. It helps you get right wants and needs. It can help you decide what you dont really need. It is important to know what you DONOT NEED. i dont need emotional attachments which i cannot handle. i dont need a lot money to make me satisfied. i dont need to be put on a pedestal and worshipped. I dont need to be great but a good human being. i dont need a big TV or a big car or a big house to feel like a king. Is this the difference between sex and love?
Anyways, the true fact of matter is a BALANCE of wants and needs. Dont miss out gaining wants at expense of ones needs and never give up looking for satisfaction of one's needs in attaining one's wants. One has to seek and strike the balance between them, wants are spontaneous while need are thought through. spontaneity is a must while enlightenment helps stay calm. One should not in search for needs, skip through the moments bring wants.
The reason for this balance, the need for BOTH fun and happiness in life.
Wants bring in fun, they are momentary but help one release the energy built up inside. One should make most of them but not loose sight and path. Remember that it is fun, enjoy it while it lasts, wont be for long and will leave you with a sense of unfruitfulness so move on. Move on !!!
Needs bring in happiness which is permanent, long lasting and self fulfilling. Such moments are few and far in between but when they happen one can reflect and feel nice about them for whole of their lives. Happiness will give one sense to rootness and in some ways discover life.
So for now, I AM FREE!!!!
back to where it all started from, this blog. :-)
It is good weather, time to go out and catch the sun till it lasts. Rest life goes on.
May you come, may you go
keep it going all along
keep the focus, yet enjoy
have fun but go on.
Born again, so cry,
Life is a journey, fly, fly, fly!!!!
something have changed...
There was a flutter, and then a movement, deep down. It started with a talk, then another and reflection. yes reflection, something which was lost was found again.
I have written things here which i could not relate anymore. I had become much calm, with a sense of purpose and belonging what i call the rootedness about life. That had come after my "matrix" moment when i was able to hold back and look at my life. I could think and differentiate my "wants" and my "needs". I seeked "happiness" but missed out on "fun". But i still had a sense to calmness inside.
Then it changed, it was not a sudden change. No pushed to the wall moment, no beaten to death event, no crashing of egos and no pain in the heart. It just happened, gradually, slowly and without me even knowing it.
Over years, that calmness had given way to agitation, frustration and a perennial sense of agitation. Nothing seemed right, never being at ease, commotion of emotions, un-surety of the next step and sense of uprootedness.
Today talking to PD, helping him out, touched some nerves, joined some chords and it started coming back. You never know what you have lost till you find it again.
Let me not reflect and try to describe how it came back. I can breathe now...really breathe...and it feels nice!!!!!
It felt as if i had not done that for years...taking a lot of air in and feeling it. you know that feeling of walking on air...thats what i feel now.
Some more metaphor and then close for the day....feels like i had entered the matrix again without knowing it, and now i am un-plugged.
i guess people really (!!!!) come in your life for some reason, at the right moment and at the right time, you just have to see and it make most of it.
Thanks PD for helping me out.
I have written things here which i could not relate anymore. I had become much calm, with a sense of purpose and belonging what i call the rootedness about life. That had come after my "matrix" moment when i was able to hold back and look at my life. I could think and differentiate my "wants" and my "needs". I seeked "happiness" but missed out on "fun". But i still had a sense to calmness inside.
Then it changed, it was not a sudden change. No pushed to the wall moment, no beaten to death event, no crashing of egos and no pain in the heart. It just happened, gradually, slowly and without me even knowing it.
Over years, that calmness had given way to agitation, frustration and a perennial sense of agitation. Nothing seemed right, never being at ease, commotion of emotions, un-surety of the next step and sense of uprootedness.
Today talking to PD, helping him out, touched some nerves, joined some chords and it started coming back. You never know what you have lost till you find it again.
Let me not reflect and try to describe how it came back. I can breathe now...really breathe...and it feels nice!!!!!
It felt as if i had not done that for years...taking a lot of air in and feeling it. you know that feeling of walking on air...thats what i feel now.
Some more metaphor and then close for the day....feels like i had entered the matrix again without knowing it, and now i am un-plugged.
i guess people really (!!!!) come in your life for some reason, at the right moment and at the right time, you just have to see and it make most of it.
Thanks PD for helping me out.
Monday, December 18, 2006
time...
it has been a long time since i posted here. a lot of has happened in my life. The last whole year has been one of the most difficult ones of my life. it has changed me so much that when i read my older blog posts, i cannot recognize them as mine any more.
The situations in life are suppose to make you tougher, but they have taken away some ways my youthful innocence and not sure if made me a more mature person or not. another year comes to end now, i can only hope and pray (yes, i said pray) that it becomes better.
i read a comment from Stallone today, that he feels at 60, he has woken up and realized that he is old and he still has a lot to do and has not done things he wanted. Ok he is a movie star, but even then look at me today, my life is also going past very fast. another year has passed, things are clearer about work but career is still a question, personally it was a tough year and need to build upon relationships.
here in germany i always wonder, people are very lonely and alone. i am also becoming like that. i spent last 2 days in bed not talking to anyone or not doing anything. just surfing and listening to podcasts, daily show with jon stewart, nba and reading blogs. but this has to change...
get serious or keep fooling
The situations in life are suppose to make you tougher, but they have taken away some ways my youthful innocence and not sure if made me a more mature person or not. another year comes to end now, i can only hope and pray (yes, i said pray) that it becomes better.
i read a comment from Stallone today, that he feels at 60, he has woken up and realized that he is old and he still has a lot to do and has not done things he wanted. Ok he is a movie star, but even then look at me today, my life is also going past very fast. another year has passed, things are clearer about work but career is still a question, personally it was a tough year and need to build upon relationships.
here in germany i always wonder, people are very lonely and alone. i am also becoming like that. i spent last 2 days in bed not talking to anyone or not doing anything. just surfing and listening to podcasts, daily show with jon stewart, nba and reading blogs. but this has to change...
get serious or keep fooling
Saturday, July 22, 2006
Tuesday, December 13, 2005
Irony of comparing
I found it to be a profound irony that i was feeling let down and left out with respect to people whom i dont or i dont even care.
its an irony that i talk about high impact area, must have area and nice to have area, and then go on to compare or look towards people who are not even concerned where they are and what they are working towards. for them just the fact that they are growing to different levels and being well paid is good enough. i dont know if i have cynical view of the people or have constructed a different reality around myself.
may be its bit of both, have to talk to people and see what they think especially the people whom i think fall into that category. understanding them may be will help me understand myself better. But may be not, how does others think about you had never been the benchmark i was striving towards, then suddenly dont know why i am talking about understanding them. confusion galore @#$@#.
i guess time to just let go of negative emotions and feel good about what one has. offcourse the feeling will be there but being clear of what one seeks is the second step. the first step was when you started thinking. this is a journey, will have its ups and lows, will have its potholes and joyrides, will have its speed brakers and no speed limit zones. Its time to take things with a pinch of salt, and move on.
it is always a beautiful day, no matter what you may think or believe or feel. live with this thought and one would always happy.
its an irony that i talk about high impact area, must have area and nice to have area, and then go on to compare or look towards people who are not even concerned where they are and what they are working towards. for them just the fact that they are growing to different levels and being well paid is good enough. i dont know if i have cynical view of the people or have constructed a different reality around myself.
may be its bit of both, have to talk to people and see what they think especially the people whom i think fall into that category. understanding them may be will help me understand myself better. But may be not, how does others think about you had never been the benchmark i was striving towards, then suddenly dont know why i am talking about understanding them. confusion galore @#$@#.
i guess time to just let go of negative emotions and feel good about what one has. offcourse the feeling will be there but being clear of what one seeks is the second step. the first step was when you started thinking. this is a journey, will have its ups and lows, will have its potholes and joyrides, will have its speed brakers and no speed limit zones. Its time to take things with a pinch of salt, and move on.
it is always a beautiful day, no matter what you may think or believe or feel. live with this thought and one would always happy.
Tuesday, November 08, 2005
World will not change
The thing that was bothering me is clearer now. The world wont change if dont come to office or not work on the ideas i put my heart and soul into. Thats what has been bothering me so much. thats what makes a hell of a difference to me i guess.
"One should strive to be the best in what one does and what work one does should be good by my standards. " Thats been my motto all along.
But i realize that it is incomplete. I have to change it to
"One should work in the core of any organization and then strive to be the best in what one does."
In a company, there are always high impact areas, the must have areas and the nice to have areas. There would potential must have areas that could become high impact in near future because of the people involved or because of the strategy of company. i always believe one should work for oneself and not for the company or organization. While working for oneself, one seeks satisfaction. the satisfaction does come from good work that would be the type of work one thinks is good. But this satisfaction is temporary, its a myth and like a spell. it would only be broken when the work gets done and the world doesnot change.
Thats what has been bothering me for so long, struggle to find what i wanted. Thats what i always wanted deep down but some how never got a chance to be in that position. Its essential to be identify a high impact area of the organization. Ideally it should be an area if it seizes to exist for the company, it impacts the whole organization. Offcourse there would always be must have areas for the company too. these would be future strategies, safe gaurds against a changing economy and possible high impacts of tomorrow. and then there would all those nice to have areas which are good if they give some returns and its still ok if they are not there tomorrow.
i realize now that for me its so very important to be in the core or high impact of the organization. being part of such an area, the effort, mind and soul that goes into work would worth its weight in gold. and satisfaction guarenteed.
the must have area also great areas to work for, they could become core some day. But one has to watch out carefully all the time. If the wind blows a different direction, one has to recognize that and shouldnt look the other way. Instead one should face the wind and move, move forward, move backward but definite move. any movements should be towards the other must have areas or if possible the current high impact area itself.
for me i have been working in nice to have areas or potential must have or to a must have area. Never in an high impact and thats what makes me go through these highs and lows in work.
lets see if things change, i know what to look for now.
"One should strive to be the best in what one does and what work one does should be good by my standards. " Thats been my motto all along.
But i realize that it is incomplete. I have to change it to
"One should work in the core of any organization and then strive to be the best in what one does."
In a company, there are always high impact areas, the must have areas and the nice to have areas. There would potential must have areas that could become high impact in near future because of the people involved or because of the strategy of company. i always believe one should work for oneself and not for the company or organization. While working for oneself, one seeks satisfaction. the satisfaction does come from good work that would be the type of work one thinks is good. But this satisfaction is temporary, its a myth and like a spell. it would only be broken when the work gets done and the world doesnot change.
Thats what has been bothering me for so long, struggle to find what i wanted. Thats what i always wanted deep down but some how never got a chance to be in that position. Its essential to be identify a high impact area of the organization. Ideally it should be an area if it seizes to exist for the company, it impacts the whole organization. Offcourse there would always be must have areas for the company too. these would be future strategies, safe gaurds against a changing economy and possible high impacts of tomorrow. and then there would all those nice to have areas which are good if they give some returns and its still ok if they are not there tomorrow.
i realize now that for me its so very important to be in the core or high impact of the organization. being part of such an area, the effort, mind and soul that goes into work would worth its weight in gold. and satisfaction guarenteed.
the must have area also great areas to work for, they could become core some day. But one has to watch out carefully all the time. If the wind blows a different direction, one has to recognize that and shouldnt look the other way. Instead one should face the wind and move, move forward, move backward but definite move. any movements should be towards the other must have areas or if possible the current high impact area itself.
for me i have been working in nice to have areas or potential must have or to a must have area. Never in an high impact and thats what makes me go through these highs and lows in work.
lets see if things change, i know what to look for now.
Thursday, October 20, 2005
Being Emotional
Mood is better, things to work towards are clearer and the pain has been pushed back;
In the back alleys of my mind it must wander for sometime before it can strike again;
Live life for oneself but love some one dear,
it brings a completeness to ones soul not felt before;
time is a great healer and experience a great teacher,
heal, learn but do enjoy as life is a darling and honest dear.
ideas, concepts and problems bring joy around
keep working on them till you let down.
then rise again to move forward as
its in moving on that one lives and
staying on that one dies.
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just felt like writing it down as if i am writing a poem.
gotta go, be back soon.
In the back alleys of my mind it must wander for sometime before it can strike again;
Live life for oneself but love some one dear,
it brings a completeness to ones soul not felt before;
time is a great healer and experience a great teacher,
heal, learn but do enjoy as life is a darling and honest dear.
ideas, concepts and problems bring joy around
keep working on them till you let down.
then rise again to move forward as
its in moving on that one lives and
staying on that one dies.
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just felt like writing it down as if i am writing a poem.
gotta go, be back soon.
Saturday, September 10, 2005
Paradox
i don't know why, since the last time i wrote here my mood has become somber. i get extreme pleasure in working on ideas, and thats how the mood was till 2 days back
then all of a sudden i start wondering about my life and my career and questions like where i am and where i am going start to make me seem out of place and out of order. yeah i know things are not that bad, but dont know something is not right.
i get a feeling that i have been in place for too long, a change would do wonders but then i look at what i have done and i feel i need to learn more and make myself more stronger in fundamentals. i start wondering what i was doing in my initial years of my career. i took the condition of sticking to what i like too early, should have tried more and experimented more, should have changed jobs. Now i am stuck with this shit hole. I know its not good to think like this as any thing and everything starts to feel miserable after that. But if i look around and see people growing (not in my terms of growth) but in terms of organization career and renumerations they get, it pains somewhere deep down. its not jealousy or envy towards them, they are growing and its good for them, but it leaves a feeling of being left out and not being good enough.
i gave a thought about what i want to do, and things seem to be planned out. I just have to be a little bit more patient and keep working and enjoying. As said focus on keeping the wanting and having to be together and one would be happy, but the struggle of being left out hurts.
Emotions take over rational, feelings take over logic, and sadness takes over happiness.
And Life goes on...
then all of a sudden i start wondering about my life and my career and questions like where i am and where i am going start to make me seem out of place and out of order. yeah i know things are not that bad, but dont know something is not right.
i get a feeling that i have been in place for too long, a change would do wonders but then i look at what i have done and i feel i need to learn more and make myself more stronger in fundamentals. i start wondering what i was doing in my initial years of my career. i took the condition of sticking to what i like too early, should have tried more and experimented more, should have changed jobs. Now i am stuck with this shit hole. I know its not good to think like this as any thing and everything starts to feel miserable after that. But if i look around and see people growing (not in my terms of growth) but in terms of organization career and renumerations they get, it pains somewhere deep down. its not jealousy or envy towards them, they are growing and its good for them, but it leaves a feeling of being left out and not being good enough.
i gave a thought about what i want to do, and things seem to be planned out. I just have to be a little bit more patient and keep working and enjoying. As said focus on keeping the wanting and having to be together and one would be happy, but the struggle of being left out hurts.
Emotions take over rational, feelings take over logic, and sadness takes over happiness.
And Life goes on...
Tuesday, August 16, 2005
Overloaded
Sometimes i get so engrossed in finding solution to a problem that everything else is just not noticed. I had been working on concept paper, where i want to define and explain some ideas that i had. At times i feel, it is easy to think of an idea, but very difficult to put it down on paper to explain to people. Essentially you would have to consider all the possiblities, weigh the pros and cons of the idea, define the process in which the idea would be benefitial. The whole process is quite taxing but having an environment of peers whom you are able to share it and who add value to the whole process tend to make the process a lot less simpler.
Thats what i have been struggling with these days, having to think of all possible angles for the current concept. I guess i have learnt the hard way about being thorough while sharing the concepts. Even though i am able to discuss with R and the process itself is quite invigorating, i still have put it down myself and thats taking quite some toll.
I was heard talking in my sleep last night, though my roommates tell me that its happened before also. I find it really strange that one is able to dream and even talk about things during sleep, yet not recollect any thing on waking up. I still dont what i was dreaming about but its remembrance leaves me mixed emotions.
I am little relaxed today, a breakthrough in thought process itself has helped me look at the concept in different view and hence things seem to be falling into place.
I didnt get time to read H2G2, and weekend is already planned out. I guess monday would be another new week and the process of bringing together of have to and want to will continue.
Thats what i have been struggling with these days, having to think of all possible angles for the current concept. I guess i have learnt the hard way about being thorough while sharing the concepts. Even though i am able to discuss with R and the process itself is quite invigorating, i still have put it down myself and thats taking quite some toll.
I was heard talking in my sleep last night, though my roommates tell me that its happened before also. I find it really strange that one is able to dream and even talk about things during sleep, yet not recollect any thing on waking up. I still dont what i was dreaming about but its remembrance leaves me mixed emotions.
I am little relaxed today, a breakthrough in thought process itself has helped me look at the concept in different view and hence things seem to be falling into place.
I didnt get time to read H2G2, and weekend is already planned out. I guess monday would be another new week and the process of bringing together of have to and want to will continue.
Wednesday, July 27, 2005
Having and Wanting
There is always a struggle between things that one has to do and one wants to do. If one manages to get both these objectives aligned in their everyday life, life would definitely be more enjoyable.
I was cursing myself the other day for not being cheerful and happy. Some where the having and wanting were getting apart for past few months. the good part is that i felt the difference before they could have moved away from each other. The effort to bring these two parts together has taken some time. As reflects from the fact that i am back to blogging and reading regularly, and still meeting my deadlines and work schedules. There are still somethings to be sorted out but its working.
I finished reading "The Red Carpet", what invigorated me was the writer's ability to capture snapshot of the people's life thru the short stories. All the stories are based in Bangalore and the sense of belonging towards this city made me nostalgic about my times here. Off course the city has changed from the times i have been here, but the short stories really made me see that side of bangalore that i used to like or still like. The main theme of the most of the stories is the changing face of india especially bangalore. The initial ones are ok, but the two i liked the most of had a similar theme of bond between parents and children even in this new new world if i may call it. First one was about the daughter of an american indian coming back just to find how things have changed, but still valueing her relationship with her dad and how she has the choice, while the second one touched the theme of an america educated daughter coming back only to realize underline connection between her mother and herself. Though none of the stories had a definite ending or for that matter a begining also, they were true to the definition of snapshot into life of the characters.
Some how my collection of books in increasing at a faster pace then my ability to finish reading them. Moreover my mood swings also affect what i read, i started reading "A Farewell to Arms" but then left it mid way, same has happened to "Who says Elephant can't dance". Finally just with the mood i picked up "Hitch Hiker's Guide to Galaxy". I had bought this omnibus quite some time back but as it happens with most of the my books, i could only start reading it now. I definitely found it to be an extremely entertaining book. One of the first things you get to know in this book is why the internet translation tool was named "Babel Fish" cause Babel Fish is actually a fish that goes into ones ear and lives on brainwave radiation from every source but its host. It then excretes energy in the form of exactly the correct brainwaves needed by its host to understand what was just said. In layman terms it translates any language of the galaxy to the one you would understand. So our hero Arthur Dent gets his babel fish one from his guide, the roving reporter of the H2G2, Ford Prefect.
Since i just started can't say how it may end, but i am hopeful.
I was cursing myself the other day for not being cheerful and happy. Some where the having and wanting were getting apart for past few months. the good part is that i felt the difference before they could have moved away from each other. The effort to bring these two parts together has taken some time. As reflects from the fact that i am back to blogging and reading regularly, and still meeting my deadlines and work schedules. There are still somethings to be sorted out but its working.
I finished reading "The Red Carpet", what invigorated me was the writer's ability to capture snapshot of the people's life thru the short stories. All the stories are based in Bangalore and the sense of belonging towards this city made me nostalgic about my times here. Off course the city has changed from the times i have been here, but the short stories really made me see that side of bangalore that i used to like or still like. The main theme of the most of the stories is the changing face of india especially bangalore. The initial ones are ok, but the two i liked the most of had a similar theme of bond between parents and children even in this new new world if i may call it. First one was about the daughter of an american indian coming back just to find how things have changed, but still valueing her relationship with her dad and how she has the choice, while the second one touched the theme of an america educated daughter coming back only to realize underline connection between her mother and herself. Though none of the stories had a definite ending or for that matter a begining also, they were true to the definition of snapshot into life of the characters.
Some how my collection of books in increasing at a faster pace then my ability to finish reading them. Moreover my mood swings also affect what i read, i started reading "A Farewell to Arms" but then left it mid way, same has happened to "Who says Elephant can't dance". Finally just with the mood i picked up "Hitch Hiker's Guide to Galaxy". I had bought this omnibus quite some time back but as it happens with most of the my books, i could only start reading it now. I definitely found it to be an extremely entertaining book. One of the first things you get to know in this book is why the internet translation tool was named "Babel Fish" cause Babel Fish is actually a fish that goes into ones ear and lives on brainwave radiation from every source but its host. It then excretes energy in the form of exactly the correct brainwaves needed by its host to understand what was just said. In layman terms it translates any language of the galaxy to the one you would understand. So our hero Arthur Dent gets his babel fish one from his guide, the roving reporter of the H2G2, Ford Prefect.
Since i just started can't say how it may end, but i am hopeful.
Monday, July 18, 2005
Back after a while
its been a long time, some how the routine of my life had caught me with in its web. Though i shouldn't complain for this web that lies around me today, writing my thoughts down had been a fulfilling experience and i missed it.
So i decided to revive my blog, i told it to "rise from ashes" and hold me from the scruff of my neck for being away so long. Initially it behaved like a mistress whom i had forgotten as it tried to wrestle me around asking me to remember the strange code word to our agreement. the code word that granted me the access, that verified me to be rightful owner, and the one that gave a faith to the mistress that i am here to stay.
Where do i begin, its a been an boring to hectic last one year. i let my work affect me so much that couldnt give time to things i loved, reading and blogging. It took a while for me to figure out that life would go on, but one has to enjoy it to make most of it.
i sound philosophical about it but its true. I had done quite a few fictional readings lately, of people and their daily life. Rohingstone Mistry's two books "A Fine Balance" and "Such a long journey" and currently reading "My Farewell to Arms" from Ernest Hemingway and "The Red Carpet" (a book of short stories about people in city of bangalore, dont remember the author right now).
All of these really made me wonder that life will always keep going on, one has to just make the most of it.
Ok time's up, have to rush for a meeting now but will keep visiting this space of mine. It is the non judgemental part of my life, and i better be faithful to it. It would not ask questions but only listen.
So i decided to revive my blog, i told it to "rise from ashes" and hold me from the scruff of my neck for being away so long. Initially it behaved like a mistress whom i had forgotten as it tried to wrestle me around asking me to remember the strange code word to our agreement. the code word that granted me the access, that verified me to be rightful owner, and the one that gave a faith to the mistress that i am here to stay.
Where do i begin, its a been an boring to hectic last one year. i let my work affect me so much that couldnt give time to things i loved, reading and blogging. It took a while for me to figure out that life would go on, but one has to enjoy it to make most of it.
i sound philosophical about it but its true. I had done quite a few fictional readings lately, of people and their daily life. Rohingstone Mistry's two books "A Fine Balance" and "Such a long journey" and currently reading "My Farewell to Arms" from Ernest Hemingway and "The Red Carpet" (a book of short stories about people in city of bangalore, dont remember the author right now).
All of these really made me wonder that life will always keep going on, one has to just make the most of it.
Ok time's up, have to rush for a meeting now but will keep visiting this space of mine. It is the non judgemental part of my life, and i better be faithful to it. It would not ask questions but only listen.
Friday, July 23, 2004
the creativity of my thought
I have been reading Ayn Rand's "Atlas Shrugged" these days, havent finished it yet but love it like anything. I have been able to relate to the characters so much that it has made me look at what i want and why i want. the character of Hank Rearden makes me see myself in a different light altogether...the passion to produce for him, the importance of his work, and the drive to keep going on thru the thick of things is something i have come to admire...
i could see why i am so passionate about my work, why i am not emotional about things, why i want to keep working and creating...he represents me and how i am...not being able to understand what is going on around him...he is recognises that he is missing something...doesnt understand how the world is functioning....i dont know how things with change but till now he has started to see few things...like about the looters wanting to get an appreciation from what they are doing from him...then the category of people who are producers, users and looters....
i love my work...i love my thought..thats what keeps me going that what i want to do...keep my thought going via developing solutions...my thought and ideas are the mills producing steel and metal for hank...i seek and get a sense of accomplishment making them work and reach greater heights....that what i work for...i hate to see my potential getting waste...i hate to be idle and not working on something...i dont like if i am not able to work and keep creating...
i regard myself as a producer...producer of solutions...pushing myself to create them...i also face the same irony where there isnt people around me who can really regard me or see me like this...they are talk about emotions, vanity, love and respect...i do have that but not for people...
i think thats why i love reading such books because i find characters i dont find in real life...whom i can relate to...acknowledge and share their achievements...live my life thru them in some ways...but is real life lead like books...
no i guess not, thats what i have to come to terms with...if there are producers there will always be looters...one cannot avoid them, but then dont know how to deal with them...i try to deal with them but i dont know if i will achieve what i seek....one has to find ways to keep them in their place...minimize the damage...i dont know if i will find answers...lets wait to finish the book...
i could see why i am so passionate about my work, why i am not emotional about things, why i want to keep working and creating...he represents me and how i am...not being able to understand what is going on around him...he is recognises that he is missing something...doesnt understand how the world is functioning....i dont know how things with change but till now he has started to see few things...like about the looters wanting to get an appreciation from what they are doing from him...then the category of people who are producers, users and looters....
i love my work...i love my thought..thats what keeps me going that what i want to do...keep my thought going via developing solutions...my thought and ideas are the mills producing steel and metal for hank...i seek and get a sense of accomplishment making them work and reach greater heights....that what i work for...i hate to see my potential getting waste...i hate to be idle and not working on something...i dont like if i am not able to work and keep creating...
i regard myself as a producer...producer of solutions...pushing myself to create them...i also face the same irony where there isnt people around me who can really regard me or see me like this...they are talk about emotions, vanity, love and respect...i do have that but not for people...
i think thats why i love reading such books because i find characters i dont find in real life...whom i can relate to...acknowledge and share their achievements...live my life thru them in some ways...but is real life lead like books...
no i guess not, thats what i have to come to terms with...if there are producers there will always be looters...one cannot avoid them, but then dont know how to deal with them...i try to deal with them but i dont know if i will achieve what i seek....one has to find ways to keep them in their place...minimize the damage...i dont know if i will find answers...lets wait to finish the book...
Thursday, July 15, 2004
been busy
havent been able been able to blog for quite some time...actually the things got quite demotivated and work had to be finished...its tough when u dont feel like doing anything and there quite some work to finish and timelines to meet...
anyways, lets get to the interesting part...i manage to attend SAP Summit in Mumbai...it was quite an excellent sales and marketing event..organized very professionally....good to see SAP India puting up such a good show...lots of people attended it...most of the SAP presentations were about selling SAP software, but the most interesting sessions where the customer sessions where they presented their experiences with SAP. They elaborated what were their requirements, why did they chose SAP, how did they go about the implementation, what all they implemented, what all they need to do within the organization to adopt to SAP software, what did they benefit and finally what did they learn.
it was interesting to see them echo something i always believed, businesses need to look at software as an enabler, so they should first be clear on their business objectives and realize that they need to change to adopt to the changing environment. once they do that they can look at software to help them become more versatile, flexible and efficient...but they cant think that buying software would solve all their problems...another interesting aspect was how all of these companies adopted a change management strategies...everyone from private to public sector companies realized the concerns their employees may have and went about in a very employee friendly manner to make them get comfortable with it...success of a software implementation depends a lot on the people who finally are going to use and if they are not convinced about it, company will not benefit. Moreover having policies in place and involvement of senior management only helps to reteriate the commitment of the company towards employees and efficient management....
once back to my real life i had to struggle with pending work...still trying to complete it on time...but still in this i manage to watch an interesting play...some found it ordinary some found it too pseudo...but it made me reflect on one critical aspect...the play was about a guy who is software professional and a girl who is call center executive...how they are going about their daily life...what is their life like...both of them have one common thread...the girl's bf is guy's room mate...the set of the play was simple with just a box made as a sitting...they used video screen in the background to providing the settting for the play...
i could really relate to a lot of incidents in the guy's life...like not seeing ur room mate for days...just talking on phone to him even though staying in the same house...innundated with calls from people selling anything and everything...staying up late in office and being alone on the entire floor...these are some of the things made me reflect on my past...something i hardly do these days...getting back to the play...the twist happens when this guy who is link between the 2 dies....both of the come together and meet...then another twist happens when the guy is without work and girl is fired...so they have nothing to do and only each other go give company...they never had such free time and hence dont know what to do with it...they get more comfortable with each and fall in love...and thats when the play ends...
offcourse i forgot to mention about profanity used during the entire duration of the play, some of the people found that a little too much saying that they dont know if people spoke like that...but then didnt we use these when we were in college and even when we started working...we seem to think when we are little older and things dont happen a particular way but it may exactly they way people talk today...it would have been interesting to get a perspective from someone younger...
its a simple story nothing great...the guy was good...and girl was good looking but ok...but what was good to for me to see some shades of my past inacted infront of me...in one scene the guy is all alone on the whole floor of his office and screams that he wants to be free....thats is a scene that has been with since then...today i am obsessed with my freedom, may be this is because of my past being like that guy depicted...may be thats where this desire for freedom comes from...offcourse this may not be the only reason...but i know atleast one reason for it...
its quite amazing how work influences our personal thoughts and belief...hence more reason to work in a place where u can enjoy and grow positively...i realised another thing today...its more of a question....
"why is that i measure myself with something i am not doing or i am not able to do and not with things i am doing and i am able to do"
is it true for everyone around me? dont know but one has to stay positive its the only way one could stay happy...
anyways, lets get to the interesting part...i manage to attend SAP Summit in Mumbai...it was quite an excellent sales and marketing event..organized very professionally....good to see SAP India puting up such a good show...lots of people attended it...most of the SAP presentations were about selling SAP software, but the most interesting sessions where the customer sessions where they presented their experiences with SAP. They elaborated what were their requirements, why did they chose SAP, how did they go about the implementation, what all they implemented, what all they need to do within the organization to adopt to SAP software, what did they benefit and finally what did they learn.
it was interesting to see them echo something i always believed, businesses need to look at software as an enabler, so they should first be clear on their business objectives and realize that they need to change to adopt to the changing environment. once they do that they can look at software to help them become more versatile, flexible and efficient...but they cant think that buying software would solve all their problems...another interesting aspect was how all of these companies adopted a change management strategies...everyone from private to public sector companies realized the concerns their employees may have and went about in a very employee friendly manner to make them get comfortable with it...success of a software implementation depends a lot on the people who finally are going to use and if they are not convinced about it, company will not benefit. Moreover having policies in place and involvement of senior management only helps to reteriate the commitment of the company towards employees and efficient management....
once back to my real life i had to struggle with pending work...still trying to complete it on time...but still in this i manage to watch an interesting play...some found it ordinary some found it too pseudo...but it made me reflect on one critical aspect...the play was about a guy who is software professional and a girl who is call center executive...how they are going about their daily life...what is their life like...both of them have one common thread...the girl's bf is guy's room mate...the set of the play was simple with just a box made as a sitting...they used video screen in the background to providing the settting for the play...
i could really relate to a lot of incidents in the guy's life...like not seeing ur room mate for days...just talking on phone to him even though staying in the same house...innundated with calls from people selling anything and everything...staying up late in office and being alone on the entire floor...these are some of the things made me reflect on my past...something i hardly do these days...getting back to the play...the twist happens when this guy who is link between the 2 dies....both of the come together and meet...then another twist happens when the guy is without work and girl is fired...so they have nothing to do and only each other go give company...they never had such free time and hence dont know what to do with it...they get more comfortable with each and fall in love...and thats when the play ends...
offcourse i forgot to mention about profanity used during the entire duration of the play, some of the people found that a little too much saying that they dont know if people spoke like that...but then didnt we use these when we were in college and even when we started working...we seem to think when we are little older and things dont happen a particular way but it may exactly they way people talk today...it would have been interesting to get a perspective from someone younger...
its a simple story nothing great...the guy was good...and girl was good looking but ok...but what was good to for me to see some shades of my past inacted infront of me...in one scene the guy is all alone on the whole floor of his office and screams that he wants to be free....thats is a scene that has been with since then...today i am obsessed with my freedom, may be this is because of my past being like that guy depicted...may be thats where this desire for freedom comes from...offcourse this may not be the only reason...but i know atleast one reason for it...
its quite amazing how work influences our personal thoughts and belief...hence more reason to work in a place where u can enjoy and grow positively...i realised another thing today...its more of a question....
"why is that i measure myself with something i am not doing or i am not able to do and not with things i am doing and i am able to do"
is it true for everyone around me? dont know but one has to stay positive its the only way one could stay happy...
Wednesday, June 16, 2004
Leaders...
leaders are not born but made...all around us we see people working around in teams...but what makes the difference are the leaders, managers, coaches and captains which make them work...
LA Lakers lost...thats made me philosophical, they didnt loose because of they played badly but they were outplayed by a better team...Detroit Pistons...Pistons dont have stars but they have hard working individuals...who work together really well...if Billups was unable to take shots then Hamilton was there, and if they both were lying low then Rasheed came up to take charge...and Ben the effervacent Wallace...he was every where...its a triumph of team, hardwork and leadership over stars and luck...
question may arise wats it got to do with leadership...but thats the point. Sport teams always represent real life scenario in a ways and forms one cannot any where and are able to show us how to break free of them. In case of Detroit, they were the underdogs, but coach Larry Brown was able to instill a level of confidence in them, make them believe that they can do it. Offcourse make them feel secure where they were and make them realise why they were there.
Irfan Pathan made a statement about Ganguly today, "he made me feel so secure". This security so very important that make people go lot of distance once they get it. Our india cricket team performance is attribute a lot to Ganguly cause of the confidence he could instill in all the young guys. But is security and confidence the only reasons for success?
Not necessary, but yes they are definitely one of the key ingredients....but how does that relate to my day to day work. Thats where the team comes in, every one in a team has aspirations, goals and insecurities. A managers job would be understand them and try to strike a balance between what the individuals are and wat the team requires, but as a leader you have to go one step ahead and provide the vision and goal to the team. The goal shouldnt be handed but understood and appreciated by one and all. If the leader is able to rise above being a manager and accept his responsibilities then he would be able to lead the team to great hieghts like never before. Each individual would able to meet his aspirations along with meeting the teams goals.
Striking that balance is hard, but achieving it will bring utmost success.
LA Lakers lost...thats made me philosophical, they didnt loose because of they played badly but they were outplayed by a better team...Detroit Pistons...Pistons dont have stars but they have hard working individuals...who work together really well...if Billups was unable to take shots then Hamilton was there, and if they both were lying low then Rasheed came up to take charge...and Ben the effervacent Wallace...he was every where...its a triumph of team, hardwork and leadership over stars and luck...
question may arise wats it got to do with leadership...but thats the point. Sport teams always represent real life scenario in a ways and forms one cannot any where and are able to show us how to break free of them. In case of Detroit, they were the underdogs, but coach Larry Brown was able to instill a level of confidence in them, make them believe that they can do it. Offcourse make them feel secure where they were and make them realise why they were there.
Irfan Pathan made a statement about Ganguly today, "he made me feel so secure". This security so very important that make people go lot of distance once they get it. Our india cricket team performance is attribute a lot to Ganguly cause of the confidence he could instill in all the young guys. But is security and confidence the only reasons for success?
Not necessary, but yes they are definitely one of the key ingredients....but how does that relate to my day to day work. Thats where the team comes in, every one in a team has aspirations, goals and insecurities. A managers job would be understand them and try to strike a balance between what the individuals are and wat the team requires, but as a leader you have to go one step ahead and provide the vision and goal to the team. The goal shouldnt be handed but understood and appreciated by one and all. If the leader is able to rise above being a manager and accept his responsibilities then he would be able to lead the team to great hieghts like never before. Each individual would able to meet his aspirations along with meeting the teams goals.
Striking that balance is hard, but achieving it will bring utmost success.
Wednesday, June 09, 2004
I did it...
YES I DID IT FINALLY....
started going to the gym...it happened last week on a cloudy tuesday evening. i had brought in a set a clothes with me...so there was ample indication its going to happen today...i came out of my cubicle the bread and butter of my life, and went out...took a short stroll and then i was there, standing in front of the door way to the future of my physical fitness...the door to my gym...
i started out with cycling for 5 minutes...man it was tough doing it after so long...the instructor is very enthuiastic guy...keeps pushing and erging to go on...keeps saying "good for u bad for others" couldnt understand it but still went on with it...then after some warm up exercise did cross trainer (sort of a stepper) for 5 minutes...after that treadmill for 10 minutes...and finally some abdomen exercise...my first day at the gym was over...not bad considering i was coming back after 2 years....
next 2 days were the toughest...it doesnt hurt first day...but really starts hurting the second day onwards...that day i realised...its never to difficult to start something or take the first step...its the second and the third steps that are toughest...i felt my whole body ache on next 2 days...but i still went to the gym...kept going back...the fourth day that was friday was the better...i had increased my times on the 3 machines....and was able to come out feeling better after one hour and 15 minutes of exercise....
friday evening went out with friends to a pub...was not much crowded though but that left the whole dance floor for us and we really had a great time...after gym, 2 hours of dance didnt feel like anything at all....came back 1:30 in the night...
saturday i had to attend a tech event by Sun...got up in the morning 7:30 in the morning, and some how manage to reach on time...there were series of sessions some were ok, but a few ones were good...had nice looking girls coordinating things around there...somehow i have lost that touch with girls i feel...had it been few years back i would have made contact...even got there no's and talked to them on phone by now...but i just could get to make the first move...one of them even tried to get something going but i was too tongue tied...i just shook my head thinking over it later...
dont know why i didnt make my move...havent done it lately...one has to be instinctive in these things and some how i feel i am loosing that instinct of striking a conversation from no where...
anyways...back to the gym on monday..this time it wasnt difficult but i am pushing myself harder...its getting better by each passing day and i am really enjoying it now...guess where i reached with the 3 machines...now i am doing 14 minutes of cycling, 12 minutes of cross trainer and 20 minutes of treadmill...i am able to burn around 250 kcal everyday....
hope i am to keep up the momentum...
next 2 days were the toughest...it doesnt hurt first day...but really starts hurting the second day onwards...that day i realised...its never to difficult to start something or take the first step...its the second and the third steps that are toughest...i felt my whole body ache on next 2 days...but i still went to the gym...kept going back...the fourth day that was friday was the better...i had increased my times on the 3 machines....and was able to come out feeling better after one hour and 15 minutes of exercise....
friday evening went out with friends to a pub...was not much crowded though but that left the whole dance floor for us and we really had a great time...after gym, 2 hours of dance didnt feel like anything at all....came back 1:30 in the night...
saturday i had to attend a tech event by Sun...got up in the morning 7:30 in the morning, and some how manage to reach on time...there were series of sessions some were ok, but a few ones were good...had nice looking girls coordinating things around there...somehow i have lost that touch with girls i feel...had it been few years back i would have made contact...even got there no's and talked to them on phone by now...but i just could get to make the first move...one of them even tried to get something going but i was too tongue tied...i just shook my head thinking over it later...
dont know why i didnt make my move...havent done it lately...one has to be instinctive in these things and some how i feel i am loosing that instinct of striking a conversation from no where...
anyways...back to the gym on monday..this time it wasnt difficult but i am pushing myself harder...its getting better by each passing day and i am really enjoying it now...guess where i reached with the 3 machines...now i am doing 14 minutes of cycling, 12 minutes of cross trainer and 20 minutes of treadmill...i am able to burn around 250 kcal everyday....
hope i am to keep up the momentum...
Monday, May 31, 2004
Dreams...
Dreams...
such a fulfilling concept...i am sure all of dream about things in life...they vary in degrees, serious and intent...some are more of fantasies...things we wish we could do...but then there are actual dreams...things we aspire...
some quoted a question once, whats the difference between aspirations and aim...to me aspirations form the dreams we have...aim is when these dreams and aspirations actually get concretised...this Concretisation of a dream into a definite aim is not an easy process...
for some it takes less time then others and there are others which never really achieve it in their life time...this is one of the fears i have....not being able to realise what i dream for....so what should i do for it...thinking over it i came to an analogy...
dreams are like ocean waves. They are free within the ocean and unafraid of its size. They are untouched and unruly and at the same time untamed and passionate. They go up and down...never stoping and never ending...just there in the vast ocean...trying to reach somewhere...no one knows where they start and where they end...but they keep moving...
These waves give ocean a life...they make the journey through the ocean interesting, captivating and enthralling...after all who would like to sail in a dead sea...the challenge for the sailer is nothing but these very waves which could even bring his or her downfall but then harnessing, taming and finally riding them would give him the ultimate satisfaction and the ultimate achievement...
Ocean waves actually hit the reality in the form of sea shore...the rocks on the sea shore are like society, environment, system anything and everything that is static...for the wave they are static...they dont move and dont go anywhere...they are just there to give the ocean its form and shape...
if i think in this way, i realized...dreams like waves have to strike on the rocks to give them shapes...and change themselves too in the process...if they dont change and hit the rock in the same way they would make in roads into the rocks but would be able to shape them....
thats what i see we also have to do...make ours dreams strike the our day to day life...make them conflict with our work, our relationships and our environment, if we start doing then gradually the dreams would become more realistic...similar to the waves the dreams would also undergo a change in order to give shape to life, to our environment and to our society....so when u test them with realty the dreams would strike a balance and offcourse raise the bar for u as a person but a realistic raise...moreover it would make it easy to define the aim out of the dream...so the aspiration would become aim and once it becomes an aim it would definitely be achievable....
thats i guess would be way to achieve one's dreams...not sure how much makes sense...i myself have to do it to get them into a realistic form...
such a fulfilling concept...i am sure all of dream about things in life...they vary in degrees, serious and intent...some are more of fantasies...things we wish we could do...but then there are actual dreams...things we aspire...
some quoted a question once, whats the difference between aspirations and aim...to me aspirations form the dreams we have...aim is when these dreams and aspirations actually get concretised...this Concretisation of a dream into a definite aim is not an easy process...
for some it takes less time then others and there are others which never really achieve it in their life time...this is one of the fears i have....not being able to realise what i dream for....so what should i do for it...thinking over it i came to an analogy...
dreams are like ocean waves. They are free within the ocean and unafraid of its size. They are untouched and unruly and at the same time untamed and passionate. They go up and down...never stoping and never ending...just there in the vast ocean...trying to reach somewhere...no one knows where they start and where they end...but they keep moving...
These waves give ocean a life...they make the journey through the ocean interesting, captivating and enthralling...after all who would like to sail in a dead sea...the challenge for the sailer is nothing but these very waves which could even bring his or her downfall but then harnessing, taming and finally riding them would give him the ultimate satisfaction and the ultimate achievement...
Ocean waves actually hit the reality in the form of sea shore...the rocks on the sea shore are like society, environment, system anything and everything that is static...for the wave they are static...they dont move and dont go anywhere...they are just there to give the ocean its form and shape...
if i think in this way, i realized...dreams like waves have to strike on the rocks to give them shapes...and change themselves too in the process...if they dont change and hit the rock in the same way they would make in roads into the rocks but would be able to shape them....
thats what i see we also have to do...make ours dreams strike the our day to day life...make them conflict with our work, our relationships and our environment, if we start doing then gradually the dreams would become more realistic...similar to the waves the dreams would also undergo a change in order to give shape to life, to our environment and to our society....so when u test them with realty the dreams would strike a balance and offcourse raise the bar for u as a person but a realistic raise...moreover it would make it easy to define the aim out of the dream...so the aspiration would become aim and once it becomes an aim it would definitely be achievable....
thats i guess would be way to achieve one's dreams...not sure how much makes sense...i myself have to do it to get them into a realistic form...
Wednesday, May 26, 2004
Faith (cont'd)
but one may ask what i mean when i say...Faith about what...here is list of things i believe consitute the actual faith...
1. Faith on one's own self: This is one of most important faith one should develop in one's life. i for believe strongly on this faith. It would be this faith that would stand till the end and help you when there no other faith to look at. This is not an easy thing, but if one really believes in one's self then there isnt anything that should faze that person. its difficult but its the most cherished and revered of all faiths. I try and but still i would i have reached the level where i can say that i am eternal optimist..but still i keep trying to build on it...and make it stronger day by day...some people say that i am lucky to think like this as it definitely makes like easier to live by but then i tell them that i am not lucky...i have to work hard every day to be like this...now its not a big struggle but still i have keep my motivations level high enough to remind myself about it...
2. Faith on one's loved ones: This is another aspect of faith as its based on love. love to me is one of most beautiful feelings to experience, but off course after a certain age one cannot experience it easily. It takes time and effort, and if some is puting in that time and effort for me as a person then i must say they have faith on me in some ways. This is a faith that is not some thing we decided but others decided to bestow upon us. we offcourse gave a similar feeling to other one, but we intern got faith that there are people who love me for what i am. This itself is a beautiful feeling i would say to have and enjoy. Offcourse people may differ here to me but there is thing that i would explain in the end.
3. Faith on one's friends: First there is big set of people who are my so called friends. They are one's i go out with, work with, and may be spend some of my time with. But I still fit them in to the Others category. For me the rule is simple Me, Myself and Others, the people around me move from others to Myself category when i start caring about them. The Myself category people are ones i like or love and would do anything keep our relationship going. These are the people i think about and give my quality time too also. In Myself i have the loved ones and then those few actual friends. These are the friends with whom i share my life with. They are ones whenever i meet them i always feel that i been with them. they dont complain even if i am not in touch with them. we meet, share and have good time together. To me such friends should give you a sense of faith being endorsed on them by you and offcourse by them too.
4. Faith on God: Last but not the least, this the one eternal faith i guess everyone's has to warying degrees.
actually warying degree makes me wonder, every one of us divide the faith among the four components...not one is perfect but the combination of all of them to different degrees should give one the courage and strength to be able to handle and go through the tough times.
1. Faith on one's own self: This is one of most important faith one should develop in one's life. i for believe strongly on this faith. It would be this faith that would stand till the end and help you when there no other faith to look at. This is not an easy thing, but if one really believes in one's self then there isnt anything that should faze that person. its difficult but its the most cherished and revered of all faiths. I try and but still i would i have reached the level where i can say that i am eternal optimist..but still i keep trying to build on it...and make it stronger day by day...some people say that i am lucky to think like this as it definitely makes like easier to live by but then i tell them that i am not lucky...i have to work hard every day to be like this...now its not a big struggle but still i have keep my motivations level high enough to remind myself about it...
2. Faith on one's loved ones: This is another aspect of faith as its based on love. love to me is one of most beautiful feelings to experience, but off course after a certain age one cannot experience it easily. It takes time and effort, and if some is puting in that time and effort for me as a person then i must say they have faith on me in some ways. This is a faith that is not some thing we decided but others decided to bestow upon us. we offcourse gave a similar feeling to other one, but we intern got faith that there are people who love me for what i am. This itself is a beautiful feeling i would say to have and enjoy. Offcourse people may differ here to me but there is thing that i would explain in the end.
3. Faith on one's friends: First there is big set of people who are my so called friends. They are one's i go out with, work with, and may be spend some of my time with. But I still fit them in to the Others category. For me the rule is simple Me, Myself and Others, the people around me move from others to Myself category when i start caring about them. The Myself category people are ones i like or love and would do anything keep our relationship going. These are the people i think about and give my quality time too also. In Myself i have the loved ones and then those few actual friends. These are the friends with whom i share my life with. They are ones whenever i meet them i always feel that i been with them. they dont complain even if i am not in touch with them. we meet, share and have good time together. To me such friends should give you a sense of faith being endorsed on them by you and offcourse by them too.
4. Faith on God: Last but not the least, this the one eternal faith i guess everyone's has to warying degrees.
actually warying degree makes me wonder, every one of us divide the faith among the four components...not one is perfect but the combination of all of them to different degrees should give one the courage and strength to be able to handle and go through the tough times.
Faith...
this is something i realised while having a discussion last night...
faith...in times when we are in doubt and full of problems, we actually have to go through them as experiences. But there is one thing that keeps us going and keeps us motivated to continue is FAITH...
i always believed that what ever happens happens for good...so today one may say that his or her situation is full of problems but i believe and have experienced myself also that these problems or situations are there to tell us something...make us learn...make us grow as a person...we should try to make most of them...and move forward...in the end once all of its over one could look back really see that all those experiences have been good for one...
for me its definitely happened that there were times when my career and life were really in doldrums...and there seemed no way forward...but i went through it...learnt about people who are really my friends and who are there for being there...learnt about being practical and what can be done and should be done...so as hindsight i believe that was a learning experience for me...
but the problem is this wisdom still does not help me when i am in the thick of things..when u are stuck u are stuck...its that simple...wat ever u may believe and know can help but u need something else to really fight it out...
To me that is where Faith steps it...Faith is the one that should give one the strength and endurance to stand through test of times...should give one the belief that things will be different one day...should motivate and give hope for a better tomorrow one day...
faith...in times when we are in doubt and full of problems, we actually have to go through them as experiences. But there is one thing that keeps us going and keeps us motivated to continue is FAITH...
i always believed that what ever happens happens for good...so today one may say that his or her situation is full of problems but i believe and have experienced myself also that these problems or situations are there to tell us something...make us learn...make us grow as a person...we should try to make most of them...and move forward...in the end once all of its over one could look back really see that all those experiences have been good for one...
for me its definitely happened that there were times when my career and life were really in doldrums...and there seemed no way forward...but i went through it...learnt about people who are really my friends and who are there for being there...learnt about being practical and what can be done and should be done...so as hindsight i believe that was a learning experience for me...
but the problem is this wisdom still does not help me when i am in the thick of things..when u are stuck u are stuck...its that simple...wat ever u may believe and know can help but u need something else to really fight it out...
To me that is where Faith steps it...Faith is the one that should give one the strength and endurance to stand through test of times...should give one the belief that things will be different one day...should motivate and give hope for a better tomorrow one day...
Thursday, May 20, 2004
Freedom...
the sense of being free. One thing i realized in past few years that one neednt move away from everything in search of complete freedom. Freedom is something thats within each one of us.
Lets see the dictionary meaning of freedom:
freedom n. The condition of being free of restraints.
there have been times when people wanted to seek freedom via renunciation of our daily responsibilities and moving away from it. this way they preached one will be free of restraints and free to do one wants to do. there will not be any bonds, constraints, restraints and without living the life as the society wants them to be.
but thats where i choose to differ. for me freedom is a state of mind. one can be among all the responsibilities, presures and constraints and still feel free. Freedom is to be among your so called societically acceptable life and still choose and do what u want to do and know that you are doing it. Thats what i would say is the one of ultimate state to attain. the power to choice and an understanding about ur decisions actually helps you move towards it.
like today i feel ok, i am stuck at this position but its after my choice that i am exercising. it terms of my life and career i have to ultimately decide what i want to do and where i want to see my self as. One thing is for sure i want reach the highest level of creative satisfaction i could get out of my work and life. thats what i look for.
If thats the case i guess i have to make most of all the opportunities that would take me towards that. all those irrespective if the come in my current position or in my current way of life, if i am moving towards it its fine. Then all the talk about stuck up and not going anywhere doesnt make sense. I am not going anywhere could be in the sense as society and the world sees me, but i am definitely moving towards my goals. thats what matters in the end.
I AM FREE
and honestly it feels amazing...
Lets see the dictionary meaning of freedom:
freedom n. The condition of being free of restraints.
there have been times when people wanted to seek freedom via renunciation of our daily responsibilities and moving away from it. this way they preached one will be free of restraints and free to do one wants to do. there will not be any bonds, constraints, restraints and without living the life as the society wants them to be.
but thats where i choose to differ. for me freedom is a state of mind. one can be among all the responsibilities, presures and constraints and still feel free. Freedom is to be among your so called societically acceptable life and still choose and do what u want to do and know that you are doing it. Thats what i would say is the one of ultimate state to attain. the power to choice and an understanding about ur decisions actually helps you move towards it.
like today i feel ok, i am stuck at this position but its after my choice that i am exercising. it terms of my life and career i have to ultimately decide what i want to do and where i want to see my self as. One thing is for sure i want reach the highest level of creative satisfaction i could get out of my work and life. thats what i look for.
If thats the case i guess i have to make most of all the opportunities that would take me towards that. all those irrespective if the come in my current position or in my current way of life, if i am moving towards it its fine. Then all the talk about stuck up and not going anywhere doesnt make sense. I am not going anywhere could be in the sense as society and the world sees me, but i am definitely moving towards my goals. thats what matters in the end.
I AM FREE
and honestly it feels amazing...
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