sometimes...

there are a lot of times i always miss and seek what i have lost. i also wrote philosophically, about not knowing what one's lost till one find's it again. Ok, my good friend at office will say re-activate, one never actually losses thoughts or way of life.

but today i feel strongly as well about feeling good about what you have, being grateful and appreciating life is really not that bad after all. sometimes, you have to lose something to realize you actually had it in the first place.

So that squares of the logic in this whole argument. One side one does not appreciate what one has until it is not there anymore, while on the other side you end up finding something you lost which you never appreciated when you had it.

sounds convulated and confusing...but does that mean you can never really have it all anytime. no just that feel things in your heart and then let them pass through. Holding on to emotions, can cloud everything.

stories about people's life can make one reflect on one's own. thats the reason i want to write a book, make people think and reflect and may be in the process become happy about life!

its not about who you are and....ok this is going a little too far. am i watching too many hollywood mushy movies....do i sound like one §!$ :-)

did u know blogger had a way for me to write in hindi! SO COOL!!!!!

it works like this: i type "aap" and blogger will make it "आप" WAY TOO COOL!
मैं नही जनता पर मैं अपने परिवार से बहुत बहुत प्यार करता हूँ। मैं उन्हें बहुत याद करता हूँ।

Technology never ceases to amaze me.

life, apple and universe...

i always wonder if there can be technological products that create a sense of excitement as one will use them. Make you feel as if the product is meant to be experienced in a certain way, so obvious and yet no one could think of it before.

for me, it started with iMac and now i even bought the iPhone, with it i became a lifelong member of apple. A friend of mine does not like products from Apple exactly because of this aspect and how people become passionate users. Using iPhone i forget that its a phone. For me it really is a mini computing device which i carry and on which i can also make phone calls. To me thats the power of design to turn inane everyday people going about their day-to-day life into passionate end-users or consumers as some will say.

On a different note, work is getting along, motivation needs to be generated rather then felt. will see if i can develop iPhone applications, need to sort out company policy and conflict of interest thingy before jumping.

i have to really think about starting a new blog on my tech experiences. this one is not really read by anyone, just my personal diary or random thoughts, feelings and emotions. The other day i was checking out the company developer network and saw the whole community based interaction. I need to get involved in this process, cannot just sit on the fence for long. time to jump in, otherwise i will never write.

I feel sad for Rene Bhawanker, he is smart, modern and a progressive indian. If i dont put down his story, i never will. Rene needs to get alive, otherwise I will just let him die, need to make notes i am forgetting things about him now.

what one wants is not known,
what one gets is so much so,
take it forward and take it far,
make it wonder and yet not roar.
what that it is never to be found,
truth is that life has to go on.
nudge and push is what i need,
serious, yet funny i have to be,
breathe, listen and feel,
jump into the water and let it be.